Agonizing Over the Smallest Things Is Always a Good Thing, Isn't It?

P: You should just be honest, and tell him.
Me: And then run to Ireland and never come back.
P: Errr...

P is a wise wise man. And he actually knows what he's talking about. So I can't even have the satisfaction of telling him 'It's easy to say, but it's not easy to do'. He's right, I know it, and he knows it. But of course, unlike me, he's too nice to rub it in my face. And regarding this situation, he should rub it in my face, considering I pushed and pushed him to be honest with his feelings in the past. So....I guess karma's a bitch.

So sorry P, you're great at giving me advices but I should probably tell you that every time I ask for advices, it's because I already know what I'm supposed to do (were I a sensible and pragmatic person, which I'm not ....anymore) but I just don't want to do it. Or I'm too scared to do it. I'd like to be fearless sometimes, but then I'd probably end up destroying the world or something like that.

One thing is weird: I've got the most amazing (female) friends ever, but whenever it comes to my lovelife, I automatically go to my guy friends (except for Sofie-M). Wonder why? Because it's obvious most of the time, they're as clueless as I am....which I guess is part of the fun. Thanks guys.